i don’t look like the women in the magazines or movies. i look like my grandmothers, my aunt, my mother. i see myself in pictures of them when they were young, i see my future when i look at them now. those are the women i come from, those are the women who made me who i am, in more ways than one. i have no connection to the women in the media, beautiful as they are, talented as they may be. i am not of them.